2007.10.19
Carbon Copy
I don't know how many times guys will walk up to me and immediately assume something is wrong because I'm not perky. How many fucking times will I have to hear the words:
SMILE! YOU'VE GOT THINGS TO LIVE FOR!
Did I ever say I was pissed off? Did I ever say I was depressed? Did I ever say I was angry? I'm just not that emotional. Not all girls were made to be carbon copies of each other. And I'm tired of being seen like something is wrong just because I'm not perky and because I don't seem to give a shit when people small talk with me. If I were to talk about myself they'd be uninterested and walk off. Why should I be scolded for doing the same?
I never see people walking up to guys and telling them to smile, jump up and down acting bubbly, tilt their heads and freak everyone out with a Julia Roberts smile whenever someone talks to them. No one will assume anything is wrong with a guy who isn't emotional. But if you're a girl who doesn't get emotional over every fucking thing you're seen as mentally retarded, like there's something wrong with you. Like I was born with a missing chip that needs to be installed so I can be like all the other carbon copies out there. I'm not like this to be different, this is just the way I am.
You'll piss me off by telling me TO smile.
And there's other things that piss me off as far as feeling pressured to be another carbon copy. Other qualities each woman is supposed to have. Great smile, perky, talkative, outgoing, caring, etc... Not only that - physically, if I don't run around showing off my whole body I'll get treated like shit. These days men get everything on a silver platter. If you don't have the right cup size or ass size, you'll be treated like shit. I don't condone plastic surgery (I'd never get it) but I know damn well why women do so. While men never have to feel pressured like this, you're ultimately screwed if men can't see a well figured body through your clothes. If it's not about having an hour glass figure or being badly proportioned with godzilla tits and no ass, it's only okay to be a stick if you're Asian. Because Asian girls are in. Looking exotic by looking like you can change your gender interchangeably while still looking ten is in. And not in a cool androgynous Annie Lennox way either.
Back then men were supposed to all be manly, have big ass muscles, and never get emotional. Now is the year of the emo, the welcoming of unmanliness, if guys these days can act like raging pussies, why can't I just be the way I am. You can't expect every woman out there to have a perfect body, smile like an idiot, act caring like your mother (seriously - grow the fuck up), and be bubbly 24/7.